forget her..start a new life!

dear awak,
tadi awak ngadu kat saya awak cakap awak sedih kan...awak cakap banyak dugaan awam sem ni kan. ok, listen here (tu pon kalo awak baca blog saya ni lah kannn)

according what i heard from u..and some yang i korek-korek...i know u love her sooooo much! that's where your mistakes started. next time dear, don't let anyone become your everything because when they leave u'll get nothing. tak salah nak sayang tapi jangan sampai at the end u yang merana. wake up dear, jangan tunjuk yang u lemah. tunjuk yang u tu ok. dia tengah happy, bahagia, gembira takkan u nak buang masa fikir pasal dia lagi. keep smiling even though u have to wear a fake smile! never think it was the end of your life. everyday is a new beginning. treat it that way, stay away from what might have been and look at what could be. u will never get anywhere u're meant to go by travelling yesterday's road. it's a new day, so find a new way!

if u ever want to find a person who would be able to overcome any difficult situation, even the worst one, and make yourself happy when anyone cannot do is look at the mirror and say "hello"..its u lah! look into yourself and u will find a true hero. never regret anything that happened in your life as it was what Allah tests u..not to burden u, but to make the stronger u. remember, life only once. right now is the only moment guaranteed to you. smile through the hard times, even though it doesn't always seem to get any better. smile is the first step to fix things. the trick is to enjoy life by noticing what's right.

 

*gambar bunga takde motif actually..sje nk berbunga malam ni =)
*ni je kot..mood nak menulis takde dah. sedikit kecewa. see u again nanti. kalo ada jodoh. next sem insyaAllah..salam.

pagi yg humphhhhh....

bangun pagi..tak gosok gigi..bukak lappy...bukak fb. dish dish dish!!! hati, kepala, otak aku terpukul. padan muka kau asma! kene tipu wekkkkkk! sape suruh kau percaya?? hidup-hidup kau kene kencing. basah lencun! konon dah tak contact kan. baru lagi kot. 12 Mei..wadehel! kenapa dia selalu tipu kau??eh jap2..kenapa kau selalu kene tipu??naive sangat lahhhhhh.....so, ape yang kau nak buat sekarang? nak teruskan ke nak stop,huh? memang la dah agak lama tapi tu kan dalam tempoh kau percaya dia dah tak contact perempuan tu. kau tak rasa kau bangang plus bebal ke kalau kau percaya dia?seriously kesian gila kat kau. kau memang tak bernasib baik selalu. first of all, kau kena mandi bunga, buat solat taubat, solat tolak bala!

asma:
aku pon tak tau. banyak kali aku ditipu, banyak kali aku bangan pegi percaya balik. aku tough ke aku bangang eh? hurmmm, tapi kan dah memang aku cam ni nak buat camne....i find myself hard to love but once i love someone i love him hard. oh nooo, this time i have to hardened my heart. jangan percaya ngan alasan yang dia bagi dah before my heart broken hardly. yeahhhh, u have to play hard la brader!!

i trully love you. but this is how you pay me. with all those lies! ok, go on with your dream girl! i'm giving up. how can i penetrate your heart while there's someone else inside. sorry, i'm sick of this game which is at the end i will always become a loser. until when i have to be a loser?takkan forever loser kot...

*dialog dalaman aku... LOSER =___='

that idea of our childhood

long ago..time kecik-kecik cute dulu i used to telan biji guava. the most favorite part of guava. memang aku suka sangat part tu. tiap kali makan guava aku tak makan isi kat luar tu..aku makan isi yang dekat-dekat ngan biji skali ngan biji tu aku telan jadi santapan perut. makan siap nyorok-nyorok sebab kalau mak or ayah or akak or abang aku nampak memang aku kene. kalau tak kene cubit aku akan kene marah. paling kurang kene bebel. adik aku pon tak boleh nampak. nanti dia gi kecah kat mak aku. tau la kan ape jadi bila berita aku makan biji ni smapai ke telinga mak aku.

until one fine day mak keluarkan statement yang mengerikan maybe sebab dah tak tau camne nak larang aku yang kepala lebih keras dari batu ni. ayat mak aku "biar dia makan. biar biji tu tumbuh dalam perut dia. nanti ada ulat daun sekali. kita jangan tolong dia. dah larang tak nak dengar. biar je...biarrr" bila dengar mak aku cakap ulat daun tu aku dah kecut. aku siap imagine lagi macam mane daun tu keluar dari rongga-rongga yang ada kat badan aku...naive sungguh. LOL.

gambar dicuri dari 9gag..sekian

bila aku dah besar ni aku terfikir balik...betapa lurusnya aku dulu-dulu...comel kan?? hihi

errrrr

kalau tak nak say thank you, at least hargai lah ape yang orang lain buat. ye, memang aku kuat memberontak. tapi ade sebab. bukannya aku memberontak saje-saje. gila ke ape?? rasanya tak perlu lah nk cakap satu-satu kan. common sense kot. masalhnya obvious sangat. tunggu aku buta and pekak lah kalo tak nak aku terasa or merajuk or memberontak kan. cakap ngan orang lain elok je. tapi bila time ngan aku marah-marah. muka ketat. ok fineeee! teruskan!

waiting to suffer?

i know about her...yes, i do.
she was the one who filled your heart before
the one who you really loved or perhaps still love
u said u love me but i know the feeling of dumped by the one we love
it hurt enough
but u act like it was ok, but the fact is u are not
everything u did have something to do with her
the song u chose to hear, your facebook status and some photos in your phone
and sometimes the way u look at me like u saw someone else in me
all i have to do right now is waiting for u to really forget her
but for how long?
or until myself give up on waiting anymore?
one thing u should know...I HATE WAITING!

because...my only hope is You

Dear Allah,

If I destined to fall in love again at this age please give me a pure love. love that can bring me peace, happiness and blessing from You. The most important is let it be the last love for me ever. Means that no broken heart, no half-way love after this. Because it was so hard to go through that situation. i was like a living-dead. at those moment, i forgot that i still have my family. 

all i could do was cried, cried and cried. macam bodoh kan??tapi that's the fact! after that i learn to accept what Allah has written for me. i filled my thought with positive thinking. "he's not for me", "he's not good enough for me", "someone better is waiting for me". itulah ayat-ayat yang aku selalu cakap kat diri aku sendiri. only through those difficulties i found myself strong enough to face the real world without anyone except Allah with me. 

and now...someone stepped into my life. who was firstly known as a stranger. now he became a part of me, maybe. Gosh, will it happen again? please don't let it be...having a broken heart is like having a broken ribs. from the outside it looks like nothing happens, but every breath hurt...

is it love?

yes, i found someone. a guy of course! baru lagi...sangat baru. still early untuk aku mengharapkan something yg more than friend. still early untuk aku ukur jauh mana aku dapat pergi dengan dia. tapi sayang tu dah ada..hehehe. cinta belum.
the truth is i'm struggling to avoid this feeling. past experience regarding love made me suffer..even suffer to think of. sebelum yang ni, ade lah aku kawan dengan beberapa ketul tapi aku back off. aku takut. takut yang melampau. aku teringat how silly i am cried for someone who never appreciate my presence. teringat camne bodohnya aku butakan mata, pekakkan telinga dengan apa yang dia buat kat aku. semua tu buat aku ermmmmm xtaw what word yg sesuai. fobia maybe..what happened to me make me think that all the guys are the same.
but now, maybe hati aku terbuka balik untuk terima seseorang yang asing. recently, most of my time i spend with him. sangat tipu bila aku cakap aku takde feeling langsung kat dia kan. tapi mulut menidakkan. lagi-lagi bila tahu sejarah cinta dia.hurmmmmm....aku pun tak paham.
better stop now. aku tak tau nak tulis ape sebenarnya. next time je r.